My baby girl is one year old today. One year ago we had doctor after doctor give us all the statics as to what our new life would be. Never did I have a doctor say just be patent and stay on God's path and you could have a healthy baby girl just statics. They encouraged very strongly that we not put her on the breathing machine as she would not be a what they would consider a viable baby. Now at the time I was outraged by even the thought that they would say this about my baby. I know realise this is there job they do see things we can never even begin to image. I don't know if it is my simple faith that brought me to my decision. I know the day or night that part is not clear to me after three weeks night and day did not register. When my OB said this is it we can't wait any longer we will do a csection today I had never been so scared but then just as fast as the free came over me it was gone. And I remembered back to the begin of the week when the NICU Doc came in to give me the reasons not to put my baby on the machine and how I took that all in and then when to God in prayer to show me the answer and how a calmness came over me as if God was in the room telling all would be ok.
I would hold my baby. While it was not the day she was born like in all the A Baby Story's I had watched leading up to that day and it was not a week or even two weeks but two months. I knew God would give me that day in his own time not mine.
Sometimes I felt cheated out of a lot of the thing a new mother-to-be gets to experience. Like I never felt her kick inside me but that was changed when I got to do kangaroo time with her. Her tiny feet would dance on my tummy just where she would have been kicking had she been inside me.
In the hospital I would lay my hands across her everyday and ask God to send my faith in him into her and carry me and her. Now I can't tell you scripture all I know is I have faith in our God. And remember from church as a teenager that if you belive he can do something without a bought it can happen. I sometimes would sit by her bed and wonder each day that passed and that list of statics grew less and less why her. This is still ask God to contiune to show me and lead me with. I don't know why her. All I know is God gave her to me and that his plan will unfold as it is suppose to. I kept focused with a lot of different thing. The poem foot prints, a Martina McBride song(In my Daughters Eyes), what friends and family said. A good friend said God dosen't work in statics. All these thing keep me focused on God.
A year ago seems like yesterday. God has brouht us on this journey and he continues to bring us each day with her. As my mom
would say no more no less excatly what we need.
Each family member, friend and all the people I have never even met who have given me words of encouragement and prayers I am so Thankful for and we are blessed to have you in our lives.
A giveaway just dosen't seem like enough to say how truly thankful we are. Some people have giveaways to hit so many follwers or 100th post. Which who know I am close to 100 post maybe I will have another one then but for this one I didn't care how many comments or followers I got I just wanted to truly show you all who just like God never left us this year how truly Thankful we are to each and everyone of you.
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